2010 firsts, without

2010 means lots of meaningful days w/o Kieron. The first was his birthday, 3/17/2010. Today was my first birthday ever without my brother...43 years. It was also the baptism of our neice and nephew, Henry Finn and Juliet Guyton...another monumental day unshared by their proud uncle. Tuesday will be my son's 9th birthday, again the first w/o his uncle. As the months turn, more precious dates will endure and pass w/o Kieron. Special days in 2010 remain special but when I awake on these memorable mornings I think of Kieron first, and how much more special they were. Happy Easter bro, I miss the magic your smile made these days more magical. Good heavens how I miss you.

78 days

Losing my brother, and sharing a night with death at its onset and its reckoning, wrenched me...its aftermath does too, especially.

Especially the aftermath because with each day after, I am separated that much more by his last day. That it's now his death that ages instead of his life leaves it nearly unbearable.

So painfully and plain to see, but were it not for his exuberance for life; and mine for his.

Kieron Go Bragh

PS: April's 4th and 6th marks the birth dates of mine and Patrick's, respectively. One April 4th Kieron Patrick bought me a white polo shirt that I wore all spring with pride. Rest assured Patrick will be wearing a new white polo to school next Wednesday.